I'm giving up Facebook stalking in the new year.

I have lots of conversations with him in my head. Most of which I am much more brave and self assured in my words and actions. Not that there is even the remotest chance of a conversation with him at this point. I've said it before, and I'll say it again, he doesn't give a crap about me, probably never did. It is obvious that I was more invested in the friendship than he was, and naively thought the friendship would last.

I just wish I could stop thinking about him and the whole situation. It been almost 3 years. I am a sad, pathetic person for letting him consume me this way. There are many more important things going on in the world today that should have my time and attention, rather than waste them on imaginary conversations that will never happen.